It changed my life. Back then, my mind would wander to the women I had been with, the ones I cared for and thought I was in love with.
A realisation of alternate sexual orientation is mind-bending and, indeed, life-changing (not to mention a first love of any kind is life-changing in itself). It marked Frank’s passage into adulthood, after which he was able to distinguish true love from the melange of lust, need for companionship and relative affection that characterises the vast majority of teenage “loves”.
It’s like how people can tell other people that they love them in a cursory manner but don’t understand what it means until they truly fall in love with someone. The real thing causes you to realise that you were being naive before.
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